Kairos Retreat

Exactly a week until Kairos. What is Kairos? Well I don't exactly know, and that's what makes me nervous. On November 5th, at 3 pm i will be on a bus going to this retreat. I guess you could say I've been looking forward to this since my sister Jacquelyn went on it, and that was 3 years ago. I love retreats, i love being able to express how i feel and not get judged for it. What I'm nervous about is all the girls in my class are going. There are a lot of cliques when it comes to the junior girls at Bishop McNamara, and that's a scary thought. Not everybody gets along, everybody doesn't see the same things, everybody has a different view when it comes to that boy or that girl or even somebody's life. People get judged to easily, the words "hate" and "ugly" get thrown around like its the only two words in our vocabulary, and that really bothers me. What if i go and tell somebody something, and they go and tell other people? But i guess I'm getting caught up in all the negativity, especially when we can easily come together as a class and keep it that way. I'm hoping to get some stuff out that I've been wanting to say, but then again what if they don't understand? It's a win lose situation. But I know for a fact that my faith will grow, and I'm hoping people will get to meet the real Cecily, and they accept me for who i am. Those people who don't like to "express" their feelings should just give it a try. You might be holding things in that need to come out, and maybe once you let those things out, you might be happier or your faith might become stronger. I hope we can all "Live The Fourth" when we come back, even though i have no idea what it means yet, but i think it's a good thing. Welp, wish me luck. Stay Strong my little Warriors, and i love you all.